Copy and pasted from my post on the message board: Its been a very long day. It is still Thursday to me. Linda and I took mom to the Bone Doctor today. It was suppose to be the 6 week check up. Well, They x-rayed her and checked her over. The MRSA is back again. Next week we take her to an Infectious Disease Doctor in Springfield. They will devise a more thorough plan to get it out of her system, what antibiotics to try and the doses etc. She already did all them weeks on the vancomycin, all this strong antibiotics really do a number on a person. I hate to see her have to deal with this again. And even worse, you wont believe this, but….They got to take her entire knee replacement out. Yep the entire thing. And they wont put it back in till they are sure it is out of her system. So that should be another 6 weeks. And mom is 193 lbs right now (she has lost 25 lbs the last 2 months. But what worries us, is They plan on sending her home, and we dont mind one bit taking care of her, I am just worried if we will be able to lift her since she wont have the support in her leg, and will be unable to put her weight on it. I guess we have alot to figure out in the next few weeks. She has already had 5 surgeries on that knee. One in fall of 2007, One in Nov 2008, 3 in Dec 2008 and now they say she will have atleast 3 more in the next month. It is unreal. The doctors visit was stressful, we were all in tears. Then we get her home and get her settled in her chair. It is a lift chair, so we figured she would be ok. And her boyfriend Basil was there too to take care of her. I got home about 6 pm. fixed dinner, got in my pjs. Then Linda called at about 8:30pm. She had called mom to check on her, and mom had been trying to get out of her chair for about 2 hours. Basil is a little guy and couldnt lift her. So Linda and I go over there. Get mom up, she couldnt walk. Brought the commode in to her. Changed her clothes and all. She refused to go to the hospital. So we called the doctors cell phone, and he told us to give her some more pain pills and a muscle relaxer. We were trying to get her back into the chair, when, Praise the Lord, my brother Steve showed up. He has been gone since October. He helped get her in the chair. Then Cindy showed up. SO if nothing else mom got all of her kids together in one place tonight. It is just so hard watching your mom go down hill like this. I kid you not, just a year ago, that woman was keeping right up with the rest of us. It seems like these last 3 months she has aged 10-15 years. Her anxiety level is through the roof. The infection is in her bones, and that causes pain too. I just ask for prayer for her, to strengthen and heal her, to calm her and prayer for us to be able to take care of her and be strong for her. I know this is a rambling post, but I am tired. Thanks for listening to me.

 

I laugh everytime I see this. LOL I saved it about a year ago, and it still cracks me up.

I have been thinking about the word REDISCOVER today. One of the synonyms for it is UNEARTH.  When I think of the word UNEARTH I think of a seed, growing  into a plant and growing out of the ground until it becomes a beautiful flower.  So through my rediscovering of my life, I want to grow into a better person, and to learn to accept me for who I am, and not who others expect me to be.  I am not perfect, and I am not gonna stress myself over my faults. If it is something that definatley needs changing, I will do my best to change it. But if its just trying to live up to someone elses standards, I am so over it. I have no one to impress. For once in my life, I need to learn to impress me.

Basically, I am happy with my life. I love my husband. I love my kids and grandkids. We are not wealthy, but we are taken care of. Sure there are things I want, but I cant dwell on them.  Life may not be how I planned it, but I am content with it. And I think thats important. Being content. Not judging yourself by other peoples standards. It has taken me a long time to realize that. I have always worried what everyone else wanted, and what others thought of me. And in worrying about that, I was never comfortable with myself. There just comes a time when you have to decide who really matters. And if they dont matter then they should have no impact on how you feel about yourself. My family matters. What they think counts. My true friends matter. My fake friends dont.  People who belittle you all the time really arent your friends. People who always have to be better than you really arent your friends either. I gotta distance myself from these types of people.

Basically, I am gonna continue to work on me. God has blessed me with my family. My life is my business. Its between me and God. That is the only standard that I have to meet.

Amber posted about choosing a word to define her year and challenged us all to find a word of our own to define us in 2009. Instantly the word REDISCOVERING popped into my head.
As in:
REDISCOVERING: who I am.
REDISCOVERING: my faith
REDISCOVERING: my joys
REDISCOVERING: my future

Basically, I guess to me the word means to reavaluate exactly who Sandy is and what she wants to do with the rest of her life, mentally, spiritually and emotionally. I guess physically too.
I looked up REDISCOVERING in the dictionary and it isnt there. So I looked up DISCOVERING:
~to make known or visible
~to obtain sight or knowledge
~to find out

synonyms discover , ascertain , determine , unearth , learn mean to find out what one did not previously know. discover may apply to something requiring exploration or investigation or to a chance encounter.
ascertain implies effort to find the facts or the truth proceeding from awareness of ignorance or uncertainty.
determine emphasizes the intent to establish the facts definitely or precisely.
unearth implies bringing to light something forgotten or hidden.
learn may imply acquiring knowledge with little effort or conscious intention or it may imply study and practice.

I guess if you add the RE to DISCOVERING, it would just mean to do it all again. Maybe I have come to a point in my life where it is time to rethink somethings, and remember what is really important.

2009 is going to bring about some postive changes for my family. I hope that we can all REDISCOVER what makes us happy.

Mark, Mike and Chuck. 1987 – Mike’s wedding.

 

Chuck, Mike and Mark 2006.  

These are Chuck’s 2 brothers. Mike passed away at 41 years of age July 2008.  I am glad that they had 1 last picture of the 3 of them not too long before he died.

20 years...from there to here.

Actually the newer pic is from 2006 I think. But its still been along time…and look how we have changed.  LOL

Isn’t he adorable? Josiah is 4 1/2 months old now. He has learned the joys of sticking out his tongue and of grabbing his toes. His first tooth just broke through today. Here he is sporting his big brothers firemen’s hat….Almost caught that smile!

Isaiah is 2 years old. He is so funny. Here he is hamming it up with his mommy.

This is cassie, She is 18 and has 2 sons. Isaiah is 2 and Josiah is 4 months. She has been with her boyfriend Gideon for 3 years.

Kendra with her new hair colors.

 

Kendra dyed her hair today. Looks pretty good. She is 15…will be 16 in January. She is pretty excited about that.